Holding pattern/man o’ war

I’ve been on hold
waiting on things
that are beyond my control
Mergers and elections
the words of men
the needs of children

In the body
I’ve been holding
anger, tension, fear
Release and relax
swim in surrender
Look for sense later

I take a few minutes
no counting here
no counting what counts
and what doesn’t
how many syllables
or dollars
or cents

Simply showing up
(Isn’t that most of life
walking into a room
with an open heart
or a closed heart?)

The man o’ war
glides along
Beneath the surface
its tentacles
reach so far down
down to the bottom of our lives
where we were children
where opinions were formed
and tapes recorded

I used to feel confused
by the word “surrender”
until today, when I released something
I spoke it, found words, movement
spoke with a friend
about something oceanic
about the ocean
how it holds you up
carries, supports, surrounds you
sometimes gentle, sometimes violent
bigger than your actions
or mind

What does it all mean
to hold, to let go
to repeat the pattern
to break it
to swim around the jellyfish
that stings
only when threatened?

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2 thoughts on “Holding pattern/man o’ war

  1. Beth P. says:

    Jena–
    This poem really touched me.

    “…I spoke it, found words, movement
    spoke with a friend
    about something oceanic
    about the ocean
    how it holds you up
    carries, supports, surrounds you
    sometimes gentle, sometimes violent
    bigger than your actions
    or mind…”

    Yes, that’s what is my experience too. That the millions of distractions that my little mind finds have really nothing to do with the oceanic what–consciousness? love? that we swim in, move in, have our being in.

    Thank you–

    Like

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