Whole Days Lost and Given

Whole days lost to chronic pain
Whole days lost to scrolling Facebook
Reading articles and comment threads
Whole days lost to having 20 open tabs
and no method to the madness
Whole days lost to worrying and outrage
Whole days lost to feeling impotent
Whole days lost to numbing out
Whole days lost to surviving the onslaught of news
Whole days lost to defending our positions
Whole days lost to headaches and sleep
Whole days lost to anxiety and depression
Whole days lost to worst case scenarios
Whole days lost to keeping up and falling behind

Whole days given to sweeping floors
Whole days given to  baking birthday cakes
Whole days given to paying bills
Whole days given to caretaking
Whole days given to phone banks
Whole days given to blood banks
Whole days given to surviving
Whole days given to answering the call
Whole days given to listening for further instructions
Whole days given to not getting it right
Whole days given to keeping up the fight
Whole days given to doing what you can
Whole days given to staying awake
Whole days given to catching up on sleep
Whole days given to friendship and joy
Whole days given to bearing witness
Whole days given to naming the fuckery
Whole days given to opting out
Whole days given to surrendering ego
Whole days given to risking personal security
Whole days given to writing and loving
Whole days given to forest bathing
Whole days given to resistance
Whole days given to organizing
Whole days given to parenting
Whole days given to elder care
Whole days given without outcome
Whole days given in moments

We cannot give of ourselves when we are busy
losing whole days to maintaning the status quo
We cannot give of ourselves when we are busy
losing whole days to being crazy busy keeping up
We cannot give of ourselves when we are busy
losing whole days to trying to say and write the right things
We cannot give of ourselves when we are busy
losing whole days to covering our own asses
We cannot give of ourselves when we are busy
losing whole days to shaming each other into action
We cannot give of ourselves when we are busy
losing whole days to old tropes
We cannot give of ourselves when we are busy
losing whole days to hoarding our wealth

We cannot lose ourselves to paralysis and cynicism
We cannot lose ourselves perfectionism and overwhelm
We cannot lose ourselves to saying it’s someone else’s problem
We cannot lose ourselves to giving so much that we have nothing left
or giving so little that we become cut off from our humanity

There is no good way through this
It is up to each of us to decide how we will respond
what we’ll lose our days to and what we’ll give our days to
what we’re willing to risk and what we’ll do anything to protect
History is happening
Where are you?
Where are you?

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